Wow, that probably sounds way more melancholy than I intended. Or maybe it's just honest.
Because I'm not alone, am I?
quarter life crisis : Usually occurs sometime in your twenties, a few years out of school when you still feel as though you're waiting for your life to begin. {Urban Dictionary}Okay, so maybe most other people going through a "quarter-life crisis" are feeling insecure about their careers or wondering if or when they'll get married and start a family and getting anxious for their adult lives to "start." I can't really relate to that. So what would you call it when you're in your twenties, a few years out of school and feel as though you should be waiting for your life to begin?
While other 25-year-olds might feel insecure about entering "the real world," and dealing with regrets of everything they haven't done, I'm feeling exhausted over everything I have done. Basically, playing the comparison game and wondering what it would be like to have lived a "normal" 25 years.
I mean, it's not exactly "normal" for a 13-year-old to go away to boarding academy or for a 15-year-old to spend her supposed junior year of high school living with another family in a foreign country and ending up teaching English classes to students older than her. It's not "normal" for a 16-year-old to get a full-time job as office manager of a real estate office. It's not "normal" for a 20-year-old to get pregnant and marry the love of her life a year sooner than they were planning. (We're all adults here, I can admit that, right?) And while we're on the topic of "not normal," a 5'4" girl having a smooth delivery of an 11 lb baby is just a little unusual. But you get the idea.
Here I am at my 25th birthday feeling exhausted, wondering when it'll all slow down. Well, it's probably the lack of sleep making me exhausted, but the point remains. I'm 25 and rather than feeling bored waiting for my life to start, I realize it started a long time ago and I already need a break.
That's a good thing, right?
Right.
Because it means my life has been so unbelievably full!
By You I have been upheld from birth; You are He who took me out of my mother's womb. My praise shall be continually of You. {Psalm 71:6}
Full with a wild and free husband that is so encouraging and supportive and adds wild freedom to my life :) And have I mentioned he works really hard so that I can focus on our home and kids?
Full with a handsome little man that is loving and accepting and gleefully happy.
Have I mentioned they are also all so incredibly forgiving of the ways I fall short as a wife, mother and home maker?
Sure, it can all get a little exhausting. But exhausting just means time well-spent, right?
{Here's to the next 25 full, happy, praise-giving and exhausting years!}
:)
